"My Individuality Is A Centre of Expression"

Waking up this morning felt uneasy. It seemed like everything was going to take a lot of effort. Reaching for my copy of "Ancient Secrets of Success for Today's World", the bookmarked page opened itself. On the bookmark itself was written "To overcome fear right now right here, I only need let go." These were the beginnings of a song that started to unfold back in 2003. Feelings of frustration and unclarity had revealed a desire to know what I was really doing with my life:

What is this game?
Help me to let it go.
The safe, the sure,
the solving, the control.
Where is my soul?
Why does it not speak?
How long must I seek
to find the truth?

Slowly I feel
There is nothing between us.
No skin,
No color,
No wall,
No shadow…
When will I know
and see the illusion;
The world’s confusion
toying with me.

Oh I want to be set free
I ask This Consciousness in me
Guide my mind to know
From where I come
There I go…

Help me to see
The oneness of everything-
all sights and sounds from One Source.
But where lies the force
that designs separation
from its own concentration
of Eternity?

Oh I want to Be set Free
I ask This Consciousness in me
Guide my mind to know
From where I come
There I go…

Yes, then will I know,
to overcome fear,
Right now, right here,
I only need let go.

Ganga Fondan, 2009

This song has been a journey in itself for seven years and the lyrics kept changing because more and more clarity came with meditating on the "Four Proclamations". Now today, another realization dawned after writing down some ideas in my notebook.

In his book, "Ancient Secrets of Success for Today's World", the author writes:

"You will know that you live and move and have your Being in the Universe and you will also know that you are your own Universe. You will know that your individuality is a center of expression of All Power. It is through you the Universe continues its creation by becoming you."

In my notebook, I changed Mr. Sen's last sentence to:
"It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me.
It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me.
It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me.
It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me.
It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me."

Entering that into my notebook several times gave me such a rush. Suddenly the St. Francis Prayer ("Make me a channel of Your Peace") made more sense. Suddenly it was effortless to think "Of myself I do nothing. It is the Father in me that doeth all the works." Those words had been a part of my upbringing, but it was as if for the first time I could feel the ease of their meaning....the hope of these words and the promise of them. Not comparing myself with Eternity,I (for a glimpse of a moment) was this Eternity. It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me. For those few glorious seconds, happiness flooded my day. This blogpost is the outpouring of this feeling.

In that Oneness, the urge, the expression, the song, the writer, the reader, the computer, the guitar, the notebook, the Teaching, the Teacher and the student are One song or "Universe" in perfect harmony. In that feeling of Oneness there is no resistance to anything. There is only a surrender because I cannot lack. I cannot suffer. I Am Perfect. It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me. It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me. It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me. It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me.

The very power that I am writing these words with is that Power. The very power that guides my next breath is that Power. My Individuality is a centre of expression of that Power.

It is through me the Universe continues its creation by becoming me.

"Yes, then will I know, to overcome fear,
Right now, right here, I only need let go. "

Thus is a day filled with Gratitude and Perpetual Joy.

Namaste.

Ganga